Woke up early this morning and instead of doing what I've done the past few days and getting up and doing yoga THEN having a shower, I had my shower straight away. The difference it makes to your frame of mind etc when you are clean and fresh before you even go downstairs is great. THIS is why I need to get my morning routine back and it doesn't help when I am staying up later watching shite TV instead of getting an early night.
Still feel a bit fed up today, cos work is a struggle and everything you want to do involves money. I can't get the garden sorted without...Money... Can't get my toilet fixed without...Money... Can't sort stuff for the tavern without... Yup....Money! Dickhead still hasn't paid anything back and the court enforcement guys are dragging their feet as I keep being told they will get on it tomorrow and then tomorrow comes and goes. So frustrated you have to do all this just to get back what someone owes you. Also in order to escalate the claim you need to pay... you guessed it...Money. Granted I will get it back as it gets added to the claim but you need to have it in the first place to pay it out.
Submitted my product review for the new Colgate Max White Ultra, which was another product test I was doing so got sent the product for FREE.
I'm going to try and get someone to look after the dogs Friday and Saturday so I can take mum to the caravan but then also be able to stay overnight. The campsite doesn't allow dogs so normally when I take her I have to come straight back. The caravan is becoming a bind if I'm honest, because it was okay when dad was alive, he could take them back and forth whenever they felt like going. Mum doesn't drive so when she wants to go I feel guilty if I don't take her, but it's pretty much 2 hours there and 2 back and I can't even stay so it's a full day by the time I add on picking her up and loading up the car and unloading the other end. Just another pressure to add to my stress when I try to plan my weeks to do things but now I feel like the caravan is just another hassle that's not even my problem to be hassled about. I'm going to suggest selling it next year if it's going to be on my shoulders to keep taking mum there. It's not cheap either for the amount of time she spends there and on top of the site feels there is gas and electricity to pay for. She just goes from saying she's bored at home sitting on the sofa, to being bored at the caravan sitting on the sofa, so I really don't see the point. I probably go once a year so I certainly won't miss it.
Someone posted this in the Tavern today which I can completely identify with. I will say though that sadly I have never had a problem with not eating, in fact, quite the opposite, I usually comfort eat then feel fed up cos I'm fat so eat some more chocolate to make me feel better lol. I try not to get too hung up on it when I feel low though because I know like all situations and feelings, it's just temporary and will pass. Tomorrow is another day. I'm gonna get out in nature in the morning that always helps.
Just to brighten up my day though I received a PayPal money transfer out of the blue from 'The Buckleys' who are from The Virtual Tavern, saying 'The next Canva license is on us'. How nice is that? It was so unexpected and really put a smile on my face, it wasn't the money it was the fact that someone had a)read my blog lol and b) thought to do something so nice. I felt truly humbled.
I have no right to be all doom and gloom really when I look at my life. I have a nice house, I work, have two lovely dogs, I work with a great group of people on the Virtual Tavern and a great circle of friends. Things could be a lot worse. It's just a shame that money tends to be the root of many of our problems in life.
I think when you suffer from depression even the sunniest and best of days still have the dark cloud waiting in the wings, so when things aren't going so great it's even harder to keep yourself afloat.
I'm seeing Derek my old boss from First Choice tomorrow so I will probably be in a more positive mood tomorrow as is he the voice of reason and usually gives me a bit of a shake-up or tells me to 'pull myself together' lol. In fact, that's reminded me Derek is on my top influences list, so tomorrow will be a good time to do his post :-)
Anyway off to bed and up early again tomorrow for Yoga.
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