Tell me why I don't like.....

Mondays !!

They say if you do a job you love you will never work a day in your life. Well, I need to find that job as currently, I don't feel like this is it. :-/ Today was my admin day but I just couldn't get the motivation to pick up the phone to make appointments. Managed to catch up on some admin but really wasn't half as productive as I needed to be.

If the Virtual Tavern was a job I would be in my element as I never wake up and think "oh I can't be bothered with it today" because I know it helps so many people and that means far more to me than earning money. That said though sadly you do have to pay bills :-/

Definitely feeling the post-party blues already. I guess it's cos I've had such a full-on weekend and company all weekend and now I'm back to just being on my own again with the dogs.

One thing I have realised is, that depression is not something you are suddenly just 'Over'. I always refer to it as a dark cloud that's blocking out the sunshine. But even on the brightest of days when you look up and the sun is shining and there is not a cloud in the sky. In your peripheral vision, you still see that small dark cloud, and even though its not affecting your view or darkening your day, you still know that it's there. I think maybe the secret is to keep looking up and seeing the blue sky and appreciating the things you have etc. If you spend too long feeling a bit low and with your head down before you know it you look up and all you can see is the dark clouds. But if you keep glancing up every day and making time for self-care etc, then hopefully your outlook will be sunny most of the time. And even when it rains, you need to remember that the garden needs the rain so don't dwell on the miserable weather, focus on the good it is doing.

All this is very easy to say, it's the putting it into practice that is the hard part.

But every day is another lesson to learn and a reason to want to get out of bed and live a full day, not an afternoon because you couldn't be bothered to get up, but a full day. Because one day ( and I know you are not meant to start a sentence with because) you will be down to your last few days and wishing you could eek them out for as long as possible.

So going back to my original thought about not liking Mondays, that shouldn't be the case, because every day has the potential to be amazing if you are open to the possibility. We shouldn't wish our lives away waiting for the weekends, just make every day count. Fill your life with experiences and opportunities and don't look back with regret and coulda, woulda, shoulda's. It's very easy to spiral downward into a dark place but that usually starts off with our everyday thoughts. If you find you are constantly talking bad about people or being negative about everything, give your head a wobble. Constant negativity really affects our mood and before you know it when you are constantly negative you basically train your brain that it's 'the norm'. You then start to look for the negative in any given situation, "ooh look at the state of her hair", "it's nice outside but it's far too windy". Instead, we should always try to look for the silver lining. Yes, it might be bouncing down with rain this morning, but I don't have to water the plants later.

I usually do try and be a positive person and focus on the good stuff. One thing I've noticed though is you need to be very careful about the company you keep. They say you become a combination of the 5 people you spend the most time with, so choose wisely. If the 5 people you spend time with most are negative, Wo is me, life is horrible, type people, guess what you turn into?

Look at your 5 ;-)