Mac n Cheese Please

Woke up and rang my doctors to see if I could get a phone appointment, but after describing my symptoms she said I didn't need one I could just supply a urine sample and they would test it and give me the results at around 4pm.

I dropped into the docs, filled in the form, and peed in a tube (obviously not at the reception desk I went to the loo lol) then took Bella to the Groomers. It was so painful just driving cos I felt every bump in the road and the stabbing pain took my breath away it was so bad. I'm still taking ibuprofen and paracetamol every 4 hours but it sometimes doesn't even touch it.

It was Jay's brothers funeral today but I just couldn't face going out and being stood in the cold feeling the way I do. I'm still full of a cold and my kidneys are killing me, so I explained to Jay that I would be thinking about him and would go for drink with him to raise a glass to his brother once I felt better.

Spent the day just trying to keep warm on the sofa and decided to make some comfort food so whipped up some mac n cheese. I'd seen a thing Jamie Oliver did (not for mac n cheese) so I dry-fried off some smoked bacon in a pan and added some chopped-up bread. Once it was all fried off

I then blitzed it into a fine crumb in the food processor. I then made my own cheese sauce and stirred the cooked pasta into it and put it into an oven dish with the bacon crumb and extra cheese as the topping. It was gorgeous if I say so myself, so I portioned off some in Tupperware for mum and Kirsty as well as some for me for the freezer for a winter comfort dish.

Picked Bella up from the groomers and she looks all cute again cos I can see her lovely big eyes when she has been properly groomed. She is so adorable I could just kiss her all day long. She gets to have my undivided attention now without me having to worry about any Jealousy from Bonnie. I miss Bonnie so much but definitely don't want to replace her as it's nice for Bella to have me to herself now.

Watched the final episode of the Australian "The Traitors" and it made me realise as much as I would enjoy the games you have to play etc, I couldn't screw someone over that I had started to build a relationship with. I think you have to be a certain kind of person to be ruthless like that and not take peoples emotions into it.

My baby just sat chilling leaning on me like she does lol.

I've ordered some more Christmas gifts from Amazon so I don't have to go to the shops and I can just stay home and try to get better. Every year I know it's going to come around and every year it still creeps up on me but I have my year account account to get together and still havent done them. I promise ecvery year I am going to do my expenses month by month but never manage it. I just delay it until the last minute instead of just taking the bull by the horns and getting in front of it. Just like my homework when I was a kid lol.